I Know It's Still Two Months Away But...

I need help with choosing a Halloween costume. I've got a couple of ideas but I'm always open to more. I love Halloween and this is the first year that I'll actually be able to look cute in a costume because I've lost 50 pounds this year. So I want something cute but not anything that shows too much. You can be cute without showing everything. Here are a few I've found that are cute. Comments and suggestions are more than welcome either on here or on my twitter :).

Bumble Bee 

Dorothy, this one is really cute

Cabbie, I thought it was just cute 

Miss Muffet 

It's All About Money

Last night I found out that I once again wouldn't get to see the Bengals play live, unless I go to the game, because they're blacked out. I didn't realize the NFL blackout rules applied to preseason as well but obviously they do, completely stupid if you ask me. They're going to black out the game in Cincy and Dayton but not Louisville or Lexington, not sure how that makes any sense at all. It's sad that they put money before the fans. I'm very thankful that NASCAR doesn't have that stupid rule and they actually do try and get more fans instead of pushing them away. The NFL people are just greedy and pathetic, it makes me not want to give any more of my money to them but I know I will because I want to go and see the Bengals in person this season. It just aggravates me and I had to get that off of my mind before I exploded. The NFL needs to think more about fans and less about money but that's something that isn't going to happen.

A Little Bit of Randomness

I've been stuck on what I could write a new blog on today so I thought I would just post some random facts about me and my life. When I get bored late at night on Twitter I tend to sometimes do this so some of you might have seen some of these before but that's ok.

Completely Random Facts About Me

1. I love to shop
2. I love roller coasters
3. I've lost 53 pounds since January
4. I'll try any food once but I tend to be picky about what I like
5. I love to smile
6. I get irritated when people ignore me
7. I can be pretty sarcastic
8. My favorite move is The Hangover
9. I'd rather watch a funny movie that a Sally love story any day
10. I'm an amazing baker but I can't cook all that well.
11. I'm learning to cook though
12. I want to help all of the kids in the social services system
13. Chocolate milk and orange juice are my two favorite drinks
14. I love haunted houses
15 I can't stand people who lie to me
16. I have a hard time trusting people
17. I would give you the shirt off my back if you ask but don't ever steal from me
18. I'm very close with my family
19. Alyssa has changed my life forever but for the good
20. I watch some of the craziest tv shows
21. My favorite tv show is The Big Bang Theory
22. I try to make any situation funny
23. Nashville has my heart, I would love to move there but can't leave my family
24. Stupid people annoy me
25. I love being on tv. So far I've made it on ESPN, RaceDay, Access Hollywood, local tv stations and Ghost Adventures on Travel Channel
26. I want to go to NYC for one main reason, to be on the Today Show
27. I'm not good with things that involve two wheels, I broke my collar bone in 9th grade when I fell off my bike
28. That being said, I am accident prone
29. I want to travel the world
30. I can't go to sleep without the tv on

That's enough random and useless facts for now. Hopefully you learned a little something new about me. Thanks to all of you for reading my blog, really appreciate you taking the time to read my posts. I promise I'll come up with a more creative blog for the next time.

Worrying Too Much About Kyle

I was reading an article in SB Nation about the struggles that RCR have been having lately. The article gave explantations for why Bowyer, Burton and Menard aren't doing the best but not really one for why Harvick has been having troubles of late. This is what the article had to say about Harvick...

Also struggling for the majority of Saturday night's race, Harvick warned of a "meltdown" if things did not improve. Things have not been going as planned for the 29 team as of late, recording only one top-10 in the last seven races. Changes were made at the pit crew coach position, and Harvick was optimistic about the progress made at the shop last week, but the struggles continued.

Although they didn't give an explanation, I have one idea on why he hasn't been doing the best lately. It seems like Harvicks "mind" games that he's been trying to play on Kyle Busch have backfired on him. If he would stop worrying so much about trying to intimadate and threaten Kyle then I think things would be going different for Harvick right now. I'm not complaining though cause they aren't working on Kyle and he's at the top of the Sprint Cup points right now. So just keep on trying to get into Kyles head Harvick cause it seems to have helped him and hurt you.

Source: http://www.sbnation.com/nascar/2011/8/29/2391412/richard-childress-racing-struggles-nascar-chase

I Can't Go Without It

I'm not sure how I ever lived without a smart phone. I've only had one for about 3 years but I honestly can't remember what I did before I had it. My iPhone is with me almost 24/7 and I've found that I can't go to sleep without it being close to me, crazy I know. I feel so lost without it and have those little panic attacks when I can't find it.

My iPhone is everything in one; ipod, gps, Internet, email, games, social networking sites, it actually makes calls, which I use it the least for, and so much more. Anything that I need or want to know I can go on my phone and find it, who would have ever thought 10 years ago that would even be possible? Everything we need is in the palm of our hand and we don't have to have near as many gadgets as we use to. In a way it's made our life a simpler but in a way it's made it a lot busier and stressful as well.

I've noticed that I'm on my phone almost constantly checking twitter or something and I realize it takes time away from me actually interacting with my family. At one point I had Twitter, Facebook, Tumblr, Google+, a blog and foursquare that I felt like I had to keep updated daily. It got way too overwhelming and I had to just forget about most of them. It was a social network overload and my real life just doesn't have time for all of them. I started to ignore Alyssa and her wanting to play and I realized there's special little moments that I'm missing out on with her because I'm too busy with my nose in my phone. I'd be lying if I said I've cut down my phone use tremendously but I do put it down to play with her, to go make those special little memories and spend more time with my family. She's only little once and is growing up so fast, I have to cherish those little moments I get with her and make memories that will last forever with her.

The main two social sites I use now are Twitter and my blog, I still have a Facebook but don't check it too often or post things to it hardly. Still have Google+ and Tumblr but deleted the apps my phone, so I have no use for them anymore. As for foursquare, if I'm someplace interesting I might check in on it but as for everyday check ins, I don't do them anymore. My life is stressful enough and feeling like I had to keep all of those sites updated multiple times daily was way to overwhelming and stressful for me. Twitter, however, is something I can't seem to get myself away from. The longest I've went without posting something on it is just a little over a day and even then I still got on and checked it just not tweet anything myself. I have no clue why I can't stay off of it and enjoy checking it so much. I've found that I so want people to talk to me on there and I fee left out when no one is, how crazy is that?!? As I'm writing this, I'm asking people on Twitter if they would read it if I post this blog, if that's not a sign of addiction, I don't know what is. I enjoy knowing that people care what I have to say and I like that attention that I get when people reply to me about something I've said. I can be my crazy, random self and I don't worry about if people enjoy it or not cause I feel like if they didn't then they wouldn't be following me, like I said in a previous post, I'm not holding a gun to their head forcing them to follow me.

I've often thought about trying to go without checking Twitter at all for at least a day just to see if I could do it but haven't been able to do that yet. I could attempt it but I feel like if there was no reward for me in the end or some kind of competition with it then I'll never go through with it, sounds ridiculous but that's just how I am. Do any of you have an addiction to social networking site like me? Would you be willing to give it up for 24 hrs and not look at it or post anything to it at all? What about your phone, could you go without it for a whole day?

Life's Too Short

"One day your life will flash before your eyes. Make sure it's worth watching."

Seeing my grandpa go through all of this has made me realize that you can't take life for granted. You never know what tomorrow is going to bring and you need enjoy every little moment because it could be gone in an instant.

My grandpa hasn't got the chance to travel or do what he's always wanted to because he had to take care of the farm that he had. He figured he would do that when he got older and didn't have the farm anymore, well now he has lung cancer and isn't able to travel anywhere. He hasn't got to see some of the amazing sites in the world and it has made me realize that life is too short, don't think that you always have tomorrow to do something. Live your life without any regrets, take the time to spend with your loved ones and time to do things that make you happy. We only have a limited time on earth and it shouldn't be spent being unhappy or wishing we should have done the things we wanted but couldn't because we're too busy working.

I know my grandpa is happy with how he's lived his life but he wishes he could have done so much more, his life isn't over it and a miracle could always happen. There is no better person than him and if anyone deserves to not be in pain anymore it's him, whether it's here on earth or in heaven.

"Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable."

I Needed to Vent

How does it make any sense that I can't have an opinion? I get upset cause Kyle hits the wall and then I'm told that I can dish it out but can't take it. Let me tell you one thing, I have never even came close to saying the hateful things about drivers I don't like that this person has said about Kyle. In fact the worse thing I've ever said about a driver I don't like is I'm glad he's out of the race.

I was trying to be nice and not block/unfollow people who said mean things about Kyle because I didn't want to cause drama or want people upset but forget that. I'm over all of the extreme Kyle haters and will never put up with it again. I don't go and say those hateful things about drivers I don't like so I'm not going to follow people who say hateful things about Kyle. I respect other drivers enough not to wish horrible things on them and I expect the same respect for Kyle but that obviously doesn't happen.

I just want everyone to know that if you follow me and expect me to follow you back, you better not be a an extreme Kyle hater. You don't have to be a Kyle fan but you don't have to say hateful things about him either. Don't expect me to be happy when a driver I don't like wins, why should I be happy? Also, don't expect me not to be upset when something happens to Kyle because I will be. I'm a huge fan of his and I have a right to be upset of I want to be. I'm done caring what people think and I will block you if you say hateful things about Kyle. Haters are gonna hate but I don't have to be forced to follow those haters.

Too Much Negativity

I've been on Twitter for about two years now and I aboslutely love it, I've been able to meet and get to know so many great people and win some pretty awesome prizes. Lately though there's been a lot of negativity and hate being directed towards not just me but a lot of other people. I've been harrased and attacked by a couple of people lately and that has never happened to me before. Until a few months ago I had never had anyone be mean to me on there but now it seems like there's people hating on me every other day. I see so many other people than just me being treated just as bad as I've been. I have never went searching for people to say mean things to or attack people like people have done me. I'm not a mean or hateful person, I don't appreciate people saying the negative things they have to me when they know nothing at all about me. I'm on Twitter to talk to people who are nice, fun to talk to and give support to me when I might need it.

I speak my mind on Twitter and I get critized for it, I thought Twitter was for expressing how you feel. I'm very passionate about Kyle Busch and there are a lot of people who hate him and don't like the things that I have to say when it comes to him. If you don't like what I have to say then you don't have to follow me, I'm not standing beside you pointing a gun at your head forcing you to follow me. I realize not everyone likes Kyle but you don't have to come and personally attack me because I'm a fan of his. I don't go and attack you because of the driver you like, don't come and do it to me. We can have a civil discussion about it but when personal attacks start happening that's just out of line. There's no need for such hateful people on twitter and I'm over it, say one mean thing to me and you're blocked. If you're that miserable in your life that you need to go and say mean and hurtful things to people you don't even know then stay off of Twitter. People want to go on Twitter and talk to others who share the same interests and are enjoyable to talk to, not to be hated on. I want Twitter to be less about people being hateful and more about people enjoying the fact that they get to know so many new people who, if it hadn't been for Twitter, wouldn't have been possible. Twitter has brought so many good things to people, don't turn it into a place where you go to get your fill of hating on people at.

"Being nice is one of many bridges on the road to happiness"

Have To Give Him Credit

Love him or hate him, you have to give Kyle Busch credit for being one of the best drivers there is. Tonight he won his third straight Nationwide Series race at Bristol giving him 50 all time wins in the Nationwide Series, the most of any driver and you can gurantee that win number 50 won't be his last win either. Kyle will make a hole where there isn't one, save the car when it shouldn't be possible to save and get a jump on the restart that most drivers can't do. You have to respect his driving skills whether or not you like his attitude or not.

After leading the majority of the race, it came down to a battle between Kyle and his teammate Joey Logano. They were side by side for the last 4 laps and coming out of turn 4 on the last lap they were still side by side, Kyle got the edge over Joey on the front stretch and won by .019 seconds, the closest NNS finish ever in history. Joey raced Kyle clean and hard which made for an absolutely exciting last few laps. Bristol unofficially needs to be named "Kyle's House", he has won there in the Cup Series five times in row (hopefully 6 tomorrow) and three times in a row in the NNS. Kyle has Bristol figured out and I don't see him forgetting how to win there anytime soon.

Want to give credit to Kyle's teammates in the Nationwide Series, Joey Logano and Brian Scott. Not only did Joey not wreck Kyle for the win but he swallowed his pride and went to VL to congratulate Kyle on his 50th win as did Brian Scott. Not every teammate would go and do that so good for them going to congratualte him.

New Song for Kyle Busch

Recently Raytona500 released his newest song about Kyle Busch called "Kyle Busch Show". This is the third song about Kyle that Raytona500 has released, the other two are called "Rowdy Busch" and "Bristol Sweep". All three songs can be downloaded on iTunes and all proceeds go to benefit Kyle's children foundation. Kyle is using "Kyle Busch Show" as his intro song for Bristol this year. So many good lines in the song and I love the line, haters gonna hate. It's a great thing that Raytona500 is doing for Kyle's foundation and his songs are amazing, makes the haters even more jealous because their driver doesn't have one let alone three songs about them.

In case you haven't heard the newest song.

Or want to hear the other two songs. 

"Rowdy Busch"

"Bristol Sweep"

Just a Mind Game

It looks like things have once again heated up between Kyle Busch and Kevin Harvick after Wednesday nights truck race. I really shouldn't say once again heated up because things never cooled down. Kyle said Wednesday when asked about the incident that he didn't expect anything less from Elliott because of who his boss is which is Kevin Harvick. Kyle was pissed at the time, he said what was on his mind, first thing he has said about Harvick in awhile. Today, Harvick contiues the feud by saying that Kyle needs to watch his mouth or he's going to get his butt kicked outside of the track then during practice Harvick decides to give a Kyle a bump on pit road. He's been saying ridiculous things about Kyle since Charlotte and continues to try and play mind games with him, hoping to screw him up. Well it hasn't worked because you see who's at the top of the points and who has the most wins so far this year.

Kyle said during his media session that he and Elliott had a discussion and it's done with and behind him, which is how it should be. Leave it in the lower series and don't bring it to Cup, Kyle owns his trucks and he can do what he wants with them as does Kevin and they're not going for a championship in it. In the Cup they don't own them and they are going for a championship, don't go into a Cup with race and set out with the mind set to wreck someone. You wanna fight it out off the track then go ahead but so far all Kevin has been good for is talking smack and not proving anything on or off the track, his best bet would be to stop worrying about playing mind games with Kyle and worry about running the race. Kyle doesn't let him get into his head and when it comes to the Cup series Kyle uses patience and only worries about winning the race and staying on top of the points standings. Leave the drama in the lower series and go into the Cup with a clear mind and only worry about winning. I'm just tired of Kevin constantly having other people fight his battles and continually running his mouth about Kyle, we get that you don't like him but shut up and talk about something else for a change. The mind games obviously aren't working so just stop and start worrying about yourself. 

I Know It's Just Preseason

The Bengals won their first game of the preseason tonight against the Panthers, 24-13. I know that preseason doesn't count at all but considering how bad the Bengals looked in their first preseason game, this is quite an accomplishment. I think ESPN should consider changing who they have in last place after tonights game. They're basically a whole new team and haven't had that much time to actually practice and get use to each other.

Andy Dalton found his rhythm tonight and AJ Green was able to catch passes. Cedric Benson did awesome with the rushing game and I believe things are finally starting to click with the team. It's not like expect them to go to the Super Bowl or anything but I think they're going to do better than what a lot of people are expecting them to do. Tonights game gave me more hope for the season and I think the longer they play together the better they will do.

Cancer Sucks

My grandpa was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer in February of last year. He's had his challenges but has been doing better than they expected, he was only suppose to live 6 months.

In July, things started to really go downhill though. He had fluid on his lungs so they had to go in and drain the fluid off. While they were doing that they ended up puncturing his lung and caused it to collapse. He was in the hospital for 10 days and they were finally able to get it to inflate and he was feeling some better. A few days after he got out he started to feel bad again and has just kept getting worse. He found out last Friday that they're not going to be able to do anymore for him and they're just going to treat him for the pain from here on out. Today he found out that it's spread to his bones and he has blood clots in his lungs. He was admitted to the hospital today and they're going to try and dissolve the clots through IV medicine.

My grandpa is the best person I've ever known, he is an amazing Christian and has kept his faith strong through all of this. He hasn't told me but he's told my grandma that's he's so scared and just wants to live so bad. It kills me seeing him in so much pain and I just want him to get better so bad, I just want a miracle to happen. I'm selfish for not wanting him to go, I know that he's going to go to heaven but I'm just not ready for him to go even though I know he would be so much better off and not in pain anymore. It's just not fair that he's been such a good person his whole life and this is what happens. I don't understand why it happens and God is the only one that knows the reason why. I do know that Cancer sucks and I'm doing what I can to help get money to find a cure for it. All prayers for my grandpa and my family would be really appreciated.

This would be my grandpa, mom and miss Alyssa <3

Is She Ready?

Danica Patrick announced today what we all had been hearing about for weeks; she's coming to NASCAR full time in 2012. She'll run the Nationwide Series full time for JR Motorsports and run 8-10 races in the Sprint Cup Series for Stewart-Haas Racing. Her plans are to be in the Sprint Cup Series full time by 2013.

In Indy Car she has 1 win and it was a fuel mileage race. So far, this season in Indy she has had 1 top 5 finish, 7 top 10 finishes, 0 poles, 0 wins and has led a total of 10 laps. In 2009 she had the most top 5 finishes in her career with 5. She has been part time in the Natiowide Series since last year. In her 20 total starts in the Nationwide Series she has had 1 top 5 finish and that was a 4th place finish in Las Vegas. Looking at these stats, it doesn't prove to me that she's ready to be in NASCAR full time. She has not impressed me enough for her to deserve a top full time ride in the Nationwide Series let alone a part time ride in the Cup Series. There have been other drivers to come over to NASCAR from other series and very few of them have been able to be succesful in the Sprint Cup Series. There are drivers like Justin Allgaier and Michael McDowell who have proven they deserve a decent ride in the Cup Series yet they aren't able to get it because of money. To give her a full time ride in NNS next year just blows me away, why don't you give that ride to someone who actually shows some potential as a driver like Brad Coleman?

Danica has got to the point that she's at all because of her sex appeal. She has flaunted practically everything she has in the GoDaddy ads and it goes to show you that sex sells not actual talent. I have nothing against a woman being in NASCAR, I just believe that you have to earn your spot and show your skill to prove that you belong in it. I respect women drivers like Johanna Long and Jennifer Jo Cobb who don't use sex appeal to get them ahead, they actually work hard to get where they are instead of having it handed to them.

I will never be able to respect Danica as a driver until she proves that she can actually be competitive and stop using the sex appeal to get her places. She needs to prove that she belongs in NASCAR and so far she has yet to do that. She hasn't even proven in Indy Car that she's a top driver. You show me you have skill and can drive a car well and then I'll maybe think about giving you some respect, until then she has no respect from me. Drivers like Justin Allgaier, Michael McDowell, Brad Coleman and Jennifer Jo Cobb have my respect because they work hard to be in the sport and try their best to get a decent ride.

It saddens me that NASCAR has come to the point where if you have enough money and sex appeal then you can have a top ride in the top series. I want to see drivers who have talent and skill racing for the lead not a bunch of drivers who run mid pack and are the ones who are constantly getting the media coverage. The road that NASCAR is going on now is not a good one, if it keeps going like it is then it's just going to end up as a joke of a sport. When you have people like Snooki, who know absolutely nothing about NASCAR, coming to Richmond to wave the green flag then thats when you know that NASCAR had better go back to its roots and focus more on the actual racing than worrying about the advertising. You have good hard racing against drivers who have actual skill and I gurantee you people will want to watch it. People don't want to watch when all the announcers talk about is some mediocre driver running middle of pack.

If It was Any Other Driver but Kyle Busch

The truck race was tonight and to say there was conflict in it would be an understatement. Drama started before the race had even began by drivers saying that they were going to keep Kyle Busch out of Victory Lane one way or another. Shouldn't they be more concerned with winning themselves instead of trying to keep Kyle from winning?

The race started and for the first part is pretty calm with just the occasional spins by trucks but then it came close to half way and Kyle had been getting knocked around by Elliott Sadler for a few laps, Kyle went to pass and came up in front of Sadler with not enough room so that caused Kyle to spin and hit the wall. Kyle was pissed, he wants to win more than anything and he felt Elliott deserved a little "payback". Kyle stayed on the track and waited for Elliott to come back around, when he did Kyle turned him. It didn't hurt Elliott's truck and he just needed some new tires and a fender pulled out. Kyle on the other hand was done for the night. Kyle was wrong in thinking Elliott did that move intentional but it's not like he set out to hurt Elliott or anything he just wanted him to know that he's not going to take crap from him or his boss, aka Kevin Harvick. I love that kind of passion from Kyle. He can let it all out in the trucks and Nationwide because he isn't getting points in those series, well driver points anyways.

My issue isn't will Elliott at all, mine is with the fans constantly hating on Kyle for doing the stuff that they say they want to see in the races. They complain when there isn't any conflict but when Kyle is involed in the conflict they're pissed at him. Hypocrite much? Kyle does what all of the other drivers don't have the guts to do and that's why I'm one of his biggest fans. It had been any other driver that did  that did that people would be cheering it on but since it's Kyle they hate on him like no other. Well keep on hating, it only puts more fuel on the fire for him and when you look at the points standings, notice who's in first place. He's not worried with beating people up or going out and talking smack about how he'll get payback, he gets it by winning races. Kyle leaves it on the track and I can gurantee you that he could care less about Elliott Sadler right now because Kyle is one of the top Cup drivers and leading the points and number of wins for this year. NASCAR even uses Kyle's conflicts for advertising and if there was no Kyle then it would be a lot more boring. Before you go and say that Kyle sucks, come up with another word to bash him because he obviously doesn't. Kyle gets the double standard from fans and I just need to realize that I guess.

In the end, I'm a fan of a driver who wants nothing more than to be the best and won't be happy with coming in second when he knows he should have won. I don't want a driver who's fine with never winning and takes people running over them, I want a driver like Kyle who wants to be the best, get the most wins and not take any crap from anyone. I'm a fan of Kyle Busch and I'm extremely proud of what he does.

This would be Miss Alyssa

A Little About Me

I'm 21, in college and majoring in communications, hoping to get into PR someday. I have many interests but my biggest ones involve sports. I love NASCAR, football and one sport I never thought I would get into...golf. My favorite driver is Kyle Busch but I like many other drivers too, very few that I don't like. My favorite team is the Bengals even though they're going through a rough patch right now, I have faith in them. I recently got into golf and have fallen in love with it, my favorite golfer is Rory McIlroy but I like many others.

I guess I wouldn't be considered the typical girl because of my love of sports but I do enjoy all of the girly things too. I love to shop, a little too much, love wearing dresses, doing my nails, makeup and all of that. I have a huge sense of humor and tend to be quite sarcastic. If you can't laugh at things then life isn't going to be any fun. I'm a pretty random person and nothing is ever dull when I'm around.

I'm very close with my family and would do anything for them. I'm sure I'll be talking about a little girl named Alyssa on here so I'll tell you who she is. She is a little girl who my family got custody of when she was taken way 2 years ago. We had take care of her basically since she was 5 months old but got full custody in July of 2009. It's been a long 2 years but we finally got permanent custody of her and now trying to start the whole adoption process. She's three now and has completely stolen my heart, she's my world and my entire family is attached to her. She's spoiled as can be but she is the most loving little girl there is. I know I'm not her actual mom but she thinks I am and I treat her like she's mine, I love that little girl to death.

Now you know a little about me and you'll find out more with the more blogs that I post.

Lets See How This Goes

I've never done this before and it seemed like everyone was getting a blog so I thought I might as well try it too. I'm not exactly sure what I'll be blogging about but I do know that it'll include the sports I love which are NASCAR, football and golf. It won't only be about sports but probably anything my random mind comes up with. There will be plenty of sarcasm and hopefully bring some smiles to peoples faces. I'm going to get use to this and hopefully become pretty good at it, hope you all enjoy it.